Sleepless Nights

You know the times when you are beyond tired, but you cannot sleep. Your thoughts are moving 100 Miles an hour, but your body is screaming SLEEP!! But as much as you want to you just cannot fall into a deep slumber. Sometimes (honestly most times) it is due to stress, but there is the odd time when you have one of those days where something gets you thinking. It could be as simple as a song on the radio, or a news story. But today for me, it was a simple telephone conversation with a friend I had not seen in over a year. We started talking about a potential business opportunity, but we soon digressed into the mundane of the everyday. Which lead to a discussion centred around our own struggles, our own fears, and our own expectations. The catch is that although we live on opposites sides of the country, we share a very distinct similarity. We are both in search our ultimate passion. We are both for lack of a better term, lost.

It is reassuring to now that I am not losing the last of my marbles, and that no matter how I feel I am never alone in my thoughts, worries, or fears. We had one of those conversations that kept replaying over and over in my head, and each offered more questions then answers. Which made me think of one of favourite quotes from one of my favourite childhood authors.

sometimes the questions are complicated, the answers are easy. Dr. Seuss

Why?

Why is that we lose sight of the answers, and get focused and bogged down with the questions? It feels that we are always in search of the perfect questions to find the perfect answers. And if the answer makes us feel uncomfortable we rephrase the question, and are no longer satisfied with the answer. Confusing. No wonder there are those that feel lost. No wonder we feel we are constantly in search of “our true calling”.

Do not worry, and have no fear, we are not alone. If we can find a way to simply the questions, the answers will become more clear. If we work as a team, support each other in finding our paths, we can find the inner strengths needed to make the change to help each other grow stronger, and change the world, one “lost dream” at a time.

Moment of Awe

Friday night in our house is also game night. Usually the kids pick a typical run of the mill game, like Sorry, or Monopoly Jr. But this past week we broke put the “Cash Flow for Kids” game. We have been playing this game off and on for the last few years, but with limited success. I think in part due their ages, and basic reading and Math skills. However, it was amazing how they were able to pick the idea up so quickly and so confidently. It only took one full time around the board for my son to officially emote him self from the rat race. It was almost too easy for him. The lack of fear shown by both of them was amazing. They had zero worries of running out of money, failing o even losing. What happens to us as adults to have cost us this fearlessness. Why are we so hard on our selves, expecting perfection at all costs, why can’t we simply play the game as children??

Life would be so much simpler if we could just through caution to the wind, and just go with the flow. What happens to us as we mature into adulthood that makes us so insecure in our decision making abilities. I encourage you all to play more like children. In games and in life. What is the worse thing that can happen? We will never know unless we try!

still Floundering?

I was talking with my husband the other day…the deep almost philosophical kind of conversations one can only have with certain people in your life.  We were talking about Legacy and what we want our legacy to be.   It really made me start thinking again about what it is that I want to do with my life…what am I meant to do with my life.  Don’t get me wrong…I am very happy with my life, I  really have it all, but if it all ended tomorrow how would my life be remembered?  How do  I want it to  be remembered?  What do I want to be remembered for?  Am I living to my fullest potential?

Tough questions to answer on a good day, even harder to  answer when you are confused, unsure and unfocused.  I have heard of, and read a few self written Obituaries, and I can understand why people would take this task on, but I still don’t understand  the how? and more so the what?

How do  I  find find my true personal strengths, and how do I  use them to find what I  am meant to  do?  It seems like a ferocious circle.  You  hear of the people who  follow their  passion to  victory, but how do they know their true passion? Every time I think about it, I get more  and more  confused.

My husband told me about a program called the Kolbe A Index, which he did a while back with his business coaching group.  It helped him understand his strengths and areas of needs much better.  I am going to look into this and find out what it might  say about me…Wish me luck!!