The wonder of Music

Have you ever been driving around and a song comes on the radio, and even though you have hear the song many times before, for some reason, you actually hear the lyrics? Not only do you hear the lyrics, it feels as though they were written just for you?

This happened to be the other day while I was driving around with my daughter. The song for me was Katy Perry’s Roar. (One of my daughters favourite songs right now). It can on the radio and she excitedly screamed to turn it up, and she began whaling away uttering the odd word at the top of her lungs with full conviction. Then the actual words hit me. It was like hitting a brick wall. This song is exactly how I am feeling, and what I want to do about it. Holy Crow…talk about life imitating art or vice versa. Either way, When I got home I googled the actual lyrics, and have since adopted it song as my new theme song.

Katy Perry’s Roar

I used to bite my tongue and hold my breath
Scared to rock the boat and make a mess
So I sat quietly, agreed politely
I guess that I forgot I had a choice
I let you push me past the breaking point
I stood for nothing, so I fell for everything

You held me down, but I got up (HEY!)
Already brushing off the dust
You hear my voice, you hear that sound
Like thunder gonna shake the ground
You held me down, but I got up (HEY!)
Get ready cause I’ve had enough
I see it all, I see it now

[Chorus]
I got the eye of the tiger, a fighter, dancing through the fire
Cause I am a champion and you’re gonna hear me roar
Louder, louder than a lion
Cause I am a champion and you’re gonna hear me roar
Oh oh oh oh oh oh
Oh oh oh oh oh oh
Oh oh oh oh oh oh
You’re gonna hear me roar

Now I’m floating like a butterfly
Stinging like a bee I earned my stripes
I went from zero, to my own hero

I find the words powerful and inspiring. And more importantly they speak to me with such truth, and honesty. I am slowly with the help of others I have positioned around me starting to find my roar, and more importantly help my kids and those around me find theirs.

Sleepless Nights

You know the times when you are beyond tired, but you cannot sleep. Your thoughts are moving 100 Miles an hour, but your body is screaming SLEEP!! But as much as you want to you just cannot fall into a deep slumber. Sometimes (honestly most times) it is due to stress, but there is the odd time when you have one of those days where something gets you thinking. It could be as simple as a song on the radio, or a news story. But today for me, it was a simple telephone conversation with a friend I had not seen in over a year. We started talking about a potential business opportunity, but we soon digressed into the mundane of the everyday. Which lead to a discussion centred around our own struggles, our own fears, and our own expectations. The catch is that although we live on opposites sides of the country, we share a very distinct similarity. We are both in search our ultimate passion. We are both for lack of a better term, lost.

It is reassuring to now that I am not losing the last of my marbles, and that no matter how I feel I am never alone in my thoughts, worries, or fears. We had one of those conversations that kept replaying over and over in my head, and each offered more questions then answers. Which made me think of one of favourite quotes from one of my favourite childhood authors.

sometimes the questions are complicated, the answers are easy. Dr. Seuss

Why?

Why is that we lose sight of the answers, and get focused and bogged down with the questions? It feels that we are always in search of the perfect questions to find the perfect answers. And if the answer makes us feel uncomfortable we rephrase the question, and are no longer satisfied with the answer. Confusing. No wonder there are those that feel lost. No wonder we feel we are constantly in search of “our true calling”.

Do not worry, and have no fear, we are not alone. If we can find a way to simply the questions, the answers will become more clear. If we work as a team, support each other in finding our paths, we can find the inner strengths needed to make the change to help each other grow stronger, and change the world, one “lost dream” at a time.

Focus or Lack there of

Well it seems as though things keep gong round and round …I think I have an idea and then nothing, it hen repeat. Why is that I can never find one thing and stick with it for longer then a few months. I know that I do not have the worlds greatest attention span, but I can stay on task it has urgency. Then why can I not seem to find that 1 thing that is calling me, that 1 thing that I cannot be without, why do I always allow others to supersede whatever I am focused on. Well there is now an answer….it is an easy excuse. How many times have we all said that we are too busy, there is not enough time, other people are counting on me!

It is a crazy cycle of engagement and distraction. For me as soon as things become uncomfortable or “scare” me I back off and throw myself into everyone else’s issues, everyone else’s problems. They become my focus not MY task. I have become extremely focused on everyone else and have left no time to focus on me, what I want to to do.

So what am I going to do about it. I am going to do what was talked about this weekend, and focus on 1 thing at a time. Apparently this tasks going to be much harder then I had originally thought as just after I finished typing my plan, I made a phone call, went to the washroom, answered 4 emails, and now I am back typing.

I think I am going to need more help then I had originally thought. Uh Oh!!!