Archives for April 17, 2014

Cross Roads

Have you ever had one of those moments that stop you in your tracks, that make you think. Not just think, but re-evaluate where you are, what you are doing and who are you doing it for?

What do you do when those moment happens. Do actually re-evaluate, or do you just shake it off and carry on your way? Some people might call this moment a cross road in life. Do you go right? Left? Straight? Or turn around?

I would like to think that I would go for broke, take “the path less travelled”‘ but then reason kicks in. And I find myself paralyzed by indecision. In the end I go nowhere. I spin round and round till I am dizzy, and fall down. After doing this over and over again, you begin to feel angry, confused, frustrated and lost. Hence the spot we have arrived at this moment.

The above mentioned feelings are overwhelming and at times ultimately crippling.  At least for me… As I continue forward in this journey of self.

So here I stand, feeling alone, but surrounded by onlookers.  All daring me to take the next step, and move forward, everyone of them pushing a different path they see as the “right path”, but yet I only stand there.  Looking out to vast unknown; knowing that here is not where I want to be, but having no idea which step to take. How do know which path to take, especially when the internal struggle of self identity rage on.