Time…Friend or Foe?

It is truly amazing at how quickly time is going by.  It feels like just yesterday we were Celebrating the beginning of a New Year, and were talking about what Resolutions were being made for 2014.  In a blink 2014 is 1/2 over and and the resolutions are long forgotten.  The kids are another year older, and finished yet another year at school.  Where has the time gone? What do we have to show for the passing of this time?  

It is all about perspective, I guess;  On the one side of the  coin, on the surface it looks as though there was very little accomplished, but on the flip side, when you look deeper, and in retrospect it was an amazing six months, with numerous accomplishments, and triumphs. 

When I sat down and took the time and truly reflect on the past six months, It turns out it was not a waste of time at all. I have done a considerable amount, albeit not visible to everyone. First off there were several wins in the goal department, with great help from one of my mentors Mr. Bob Molle.  To be honest they were small goals, but still achieved just the same.  I have had the pleasure of traveling west to meet some amazing people in “The Mastermind Program”, who have both encouraged and inspired me to continue on the road of self discovery.  I have been able to recognize that certain volunteer positions were not a good fit, although volunteering remains one of my core beliefs, some  positions are just not for me.  I have helped raise over $25, 000 for a local charity as the Vice President of their Board.  I have been able to be home, and available for my family as they needed me, for school trips, scraped knees, unforeseen business trips, and unexpected trips to the emergency room; all without even a blink.  At the end of the fist six months of 2014, I can hold my head high and say that I did something.  I did something  better.  I did something bigger.  And I did it because I wanted to, not because I had to.  After all is that not the meaning of success…”doing something for want versus need”?

So  is Time a friend or is Time a foe?  You be the judge, but Time no matter friend or foe is always ones greatest asset.

Time is free, but it’s priceless. You can’t own it, but you can use it. You can’t keep it, but you can spend it. Once you’ve lost it you can never get it back.                                                                                                                                         Harvey MacKay

Have you ever had one of those moments that stop you in your tracks, that make you think. Not just think, but re-evaluate where you are, what you are doing and who are you doing it for?

What do you do when those moment happens. Do actually re-evaluate, or do you just shake it off and carry on your way? Some people might call this moment a cross road in life. Do you go right? Left? Straight? Or turn around?

I would like to think that I would go for broke, take “the path less travelled”‘ but then reason kicks in. And I find myself paralyzed by indecision. In the end I go nowhere. I spin round and round till I am dizzy, and fall down. After doing this over and over again, you begin to feel angry, confused, frustrated and lost. Hence the spot we have arrived at this moment.

The above mentioned feelings are overwhelming and at times ultimately crippling.  At least for me… As I continue forward in this journey of self.

So here I stand, feeling alone, but surrounded by onlookers.  All daring me to take the next step, and move forward, everyone of them pushing a different path they see as the “right path”, but yet I only stand there.  Looking out to vast unknown; knowing that here is not where I want to be, but having no idea which step to take. How do know which path to take, especially when the internal struggle of self identity rage on.